In my chart Jupiter's placement reveals my soul's prior knowledge and function, and my North Node in Gemini reveals my soul's intention (destiny) in this life, to share and communicate about that which is invisible, intangible, unknown, mysterious and unconscious, from a very personal perspective (Mercury in Leo). All of this is to be conveyed via compassion and empathy, in honor of the position of Jupiter and my North Node (12th house), my Pisces mid-heaven and more.
Natally, Jupiter sits on my ascendant, just inside the 12th house, conjunct Vesta, along with my my North Node in Gemini. Jupiter-Vesta and the NN are not conjunct, but they are completely inter-related in my chart and in my being.
To further enhance the Gemini theme in my chart, my Sun and Mercury (the dispositor of my NN) are in the third house of Gemini in the sign of Leo (wow, astrology is mind-boggling!). And just in case my soul has any resistance to fulfilling its intention (it has), I have three Virgo planets (supposedly also related to Mercury, the ruling planet of Gemini), square the NN to guide me back to Mercury (which is retrograde by the way-that means my thinking process is more intuitive and internal) if I get off track! Needless to say, I am multi-talented and gifted, as well as multi-challenged!For years, I have had the desire to publish astrology articles in the Mountain Astrologer magazine, and to author several books I have been writing for close to ten years, but I have had resistance, fear, stumbling blocks, and distractions to dissuade me. Still, I am always writing (Gemini and Virgo individuals want to write!). Writing is a natural expression of both signs, and with all the mutable fire, air and earth I have it is no doubt my soul intention is to PUT IT OUT THERE!
Out where? In the abyss of the collective unconscious~are you sure? Humm, I may change my mind about this sometimes, but my soul never does, it just keeps on keeping on. The 12th house is known in medieval astrology as the house of undoing. Finding one's way with so much Pisces has not been easy. Traditional Piscean themes include delays, late arriving, late-bloomer, not discovered until mid-life or later, addictions, confusion, boundaries issues...need I say more. Thank goodness, Gemini sits in my 12th house. It cuts right through the mind fog and gets to the point.
Mercury, Gemini's ruling planet, mythologically relates to Hermes, the God of light-footed swiftness. My Gemini planets in the 12th house act as psychopomp for souls, encouraging a high degree of intuitive communication since childhood with souls past (and animals, trees, and fairies too).
After much intensity this week, I went to bed last night exhausted and awoke at 3AM. I immediately wanted to write, and saw an email from a new found writer-astrologer friend. She invited me to attend the UAC 2012 Conference. While I was looking at the site, I tuned into the professional astrology associations listed. One in particular drew my attention (OPA) and I noticed an upcoming conference in November here on the east coast. As I explored their website, I found courses that support astrologers becoming professionals, plus an article that spoke so deeply to the yearning within me to continue my astrological training and join with like minded professionals, I began to cry from relief.
Sometime after the 1999 Solar Eclipse in Leo, I began seriously looking at schools-styles of astrology to study. The two avenues I explored just didn't fit, and I eventually studied professionally with one particular astrologer for two years, which led to a plethora of problems for me personally, and derailed my trust in ever studying again with another astrology teacher, though I did deepen my astrological abilities in language, understanding and awareness. Prior to that, I studied on my own for seventeen plus years.
In those moments, I came home to myself. With this new decision, all the layers that attempted to come forth and integrate several years before, synchronized before me and merged into my being. Now, I knew that committing to a massage practice at NIHA was a step backwards. What I needed, wanted, was more astrology skills to enhance my confidence, to go for it all the way, to jump into the abyss and rise, rather than sink or swim.
Over the years, many schools of astrology have held my attention, and I especially appreciate those that delve deeply, but I need structure to help me navigate the deep waters of mutability, otherwise I get overwhelmed. Just as massage school provided for me years before when all my deep karmic layers unearthed, fresh new astrological training will do for me now.
Now is the time to fully commit to my Gemini north node, and honor my south node dispositor with no holds bar, giving voice to the Virgo-Pisces culture doctor within. I love bodywork too and will most likely give intuitive integrative massage and core development sessions for the rest of my life, but my heart is in expressing myself via writing, and in counseling, healing (archetypal and other), and communicating.
Gemini is the perpetual student, and always learning. That's why I love astrology so much, the learning is never ending. There is so much to it, one could learn for eons. Caroline Casey once described my Jupiter in Gemini, as "eating information systems for lunch"! Her descriptions of my chart describe me to a T.
I am becoming myself, as Astrotherapist, who specializes in creative self realization-actualization. Thanks to our most recent eclipses, (and Alison Gunn for directing me to UAC and encouraging my writing) I have signed up for my first official astrology course via the Organization for Professional Astrologers retreat in November. There's a writing workshop too!. This calls for a coming out party!
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